The night that my fiancé told me that he had cheated on me was the night before our wedding. I wanted to talk to my mom, but she was end stage cancer at this point. I did not want her to worry. I kept thinking about the free printable bible study lessonsthat my fiancé and I had been doing together. I couldn’t believe that he had betrayed me and continued going to church and studying the bible like nothing was wrong.
I cried all night long. I tried to call my friend but he didn’t answer the phone. I did not know what to do. I was pregnant, my dad had told me I had to move out, I felt like I could not do this alone. Then I thought about all the people that had done so much for my wedding I hated to think about calling it off. In retrospect I wish that I would not have gone through with it but I understand my thinking at that point.
So, the next morning I got ready and went to the church. I was 5 months pregnant at that point and barely fit into the wedding dress I had borrowed. As I stood there in front of the church, facing the pastor I felt as if I was in a dream. I can do all things through Him who strengthens me, is all I could think of, from my bible lessons for youth. I married him because I felt like I had to. I did love him but I felt such betrayal and hatred for him.
I tried to forget the pain and I felt my little baby boy move in my belly. I wanted him to have a mom and a dad. I grew up in a good home with good parents. Why wouldn’t I want the same for my child?
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